Neo Gundam Wing
The Life of Shingo Winner: November Rain
Disclaimer: I don't Gundam Wing, Neo Gundam Wing, or the Guns N' Roses song November Rain 
Note: This song is partly a reflection on Shingo's life, so if you've heard some of it, don't be surprised. Also, to- get the gist of what they're saying, you should actually listen to the song (Guns N' Roses-Use Your Illusion)
By Erica Peters
(http://www.ILoveBuffyAndAngel.homestead.com/Untitled1.html)

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When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin', when I hold you...
Don't you know I feel the same
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Shingo sat in his room. He and Ariel had broken up again, but this time, it hurt almost as much as when Haruka 'died'. He loved Ariel more then anything, and didn't want to lose her again

*Flashback*
Haruka: Where's Shingo?
Ariel: Probably out fucking some other girl! ...Not that I care....

Later that day.....
Ariel: Come here puppy when I find you I'm going to hug you and squeeze you and name you Shingo!

Now Shingo sat there thinking about how to win Ariel back.
Shingo: *to himself* maybe you should just stop checking out other girls! Stupid hentai bastard!  But that Chinatsu Adachi was soooooooo hot! *out loud* Sniff.....sniff.....waaaaaaaaaaa!!!
Dorothy: *walks in* what is it honey? Would some cookies make you feel better?
Shingo: Yeah...
Dorothy: Well your not getting any!

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Nothing lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
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Shingo, now eating pie, remembered how once Ariel made out with Taleb.
Shingo: *shudder* Man, that Ta-ta-chan gets all the pretty girls...I don't mind....unless it MY ARIEL-SAMA!!!!!!!!!

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We've been through this such a long, long time
Just trying to kill the pain
But lovers always come and
Lovers always go and
No one's really sure who's letting go today
Walking away
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*Flashback*
Duet: Loser. 
Ariel: Pathetic. 
Ling: Worthless. 
Haruka: Murderer.
Shingo: *falls to his knees* It wasn't me! I swear! Just leave me alone! Go away! I hate all of you! You never liked me in the first place! GO AWAY!

Ariel: Errr! *grabs Shingo and smacks him across the face* Don't do that again! ...*grabs his arms and looks at his wrist*  
Shingo: ... Ariel: How long ago did you do this?!? 
Shingo: Before you came in...
Ariel: Are you nuts? Slitting your wrist?!? 
Shingo: So? 
Ariel: SO? You could've died if I hadn't noticed it! 
Shingo: Like you would've cared... 
Ariel: *grabs
the cloth from inside the basket, tears it in half and
starts wrapping it around Shingo's wrist much to his
dismay* Of course I care! 
Shingo: If that's true then why don't you love me? 
Ariel: *stops tying the cloth onto his wrist* ...Let's not get into that... 
Shingo: Why not? Because you know it's true? 
Ariel: *finishes the temporary bandages* I don't want to talk about it.
Shingo: You never loved me in the first place so why should it even matter if we talk about it?  
Ariel: ...*picks up the basket* I can't believe you just said that. 
Shingo: What's not to believe? That you only pretended to love me? 
Ariel: I care a lot about you, Shingo. 
Shingo: Only care about me? Wow... I'm so touched... 
Ariel: *trying to keep from just smacking the boy across the face once more before she nearly broke down in tears* I've got a question for you...Did you ever love me?

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If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head just knowing that you are mine....
All mine.....
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He starts to recall a dream he had had when he was half-dead, and supposedly dreaming of what his idea of eternal bliss would be......

Ariel: Shingo-chan isn't [the sunset] so beautiful?
Shingo: Hai... Almost as beautiful as you. 
Ariel: *puts her head on his shoulder* I wish we could be here forever. I wish nothing had to change. I wish this day would never end.

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So if you wanna love me.....
Then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walking
In the cold November rain
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Shingo then thought about how he had once almost killed himself, and remembered that it was Ariel who had tried to stop him.....

*Flashback*
Shingo: I'm so sorry, Ariel... 
Ariel: Hmm? 
Shingo: For this... *punches her in the back of the head and watches her fall to the ground* Sorry, Ariel-chan... *picks her up and gets her a safe distance away then goes back and picks up the box of matches* I love you, Ariel... Maybe this'll make you happy.

Shingo strikes the side of the box and lights the match he had taken out and drops it on the ground where a circle of gun powder was outlined and watched it go into flames. The blonde looks at his watch though the thick cloud of smoke around him and starts counting down... 10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...0! Not only were there faire works in the trash cans but also gun power and a bomb in each which tore apart the stands leaving nothing. Below in a very close proximity of Shingo were bombs on the ground that had gone off along with the rest of the flammable objects. This was all going on while Shingo, who had blacked out because of the smoke, laid on the ground lifeless with soot on him and his clothes which were half burnt.

And then he thought about the results of that as well as him running away from the hospital.....

Shingo walked though the dark rain filled streets in hopes of coming to an answer. He thought about how he had tried to kill himself and why it didn't work. He came to a conclusion that he should've ran to one of the bombs or maybe get them closer. He looked at one of the small burn marks he had received from his suicide attempt and thought about what Ariel had told him.

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Do you need some time
On your own
Do you need some time
All alone
Everybody needs some time
On their own
Don't you know you need some time
All alone.....
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*Flashback*
Shingo: *still staring* Jello...
Quatre: Huh?
Shingo: Jello... Haruka used to say that when we were younger...*closes his eyes*
Quatre: And you? Shingo:
What about me?*looks at Quatre*
Quatre: Are you--
Shingo: Ok? You ask me that everyday... Speaking of which what's today?
Quatre: Uh... Saturday...
Shingo: Thought so...*still looking at his father* You know... Mirrors are bad... A person always sees the opposite things... My left would be your right... What I think is good you think is bad... Maybe all I am is a mere reflection of you...
Quatre: Who told you that?
Shingo: No one...
Quatre: *sigh*Anyways are you ok?
Shingo: Hmmm... *looks at the ceiling* Maybe a yes maybe a no... Maybe I'm crazy maybe I'm not... But I'm not as crazy as you...*looks at Quatre again* Don't worry I'm not going to go to space and blow up a few colonies or the earth... *smirk*
Quatre: I'll take that as a no...*sighs and turns to leave*
Shingo: Could you tell mom I'm not hungry...
Quatre: *looks at the ground* You never are... *closes the door*
Shingo: *sighs and looks at the bandages on his wrist* Why can't I just die?

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I know it's hard to keep an open heart...
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart.......
Wouldn't time be out to charm you
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*Flashback*
Haruka: Who are those for?
Michiru: Shingo. Haruka: I thought we just had a talk about you being around Shingo.
Michiru: *enters the living room with a tray* Well I thought maybe you could deliver it for me if you feel so strongly against me being around him.  Haruka: I'm not going to give him shit.

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And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
Nothing lasts forever
Even cold November rain
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At that time Ariel bursts through Shingo's bedroom door.....

Ariel: I forgive you Shingo-chan!!! *glomp*
Shingo: I love you Ariel!!  I'm sorry! *notices a bloody knife in her hand* OH MY GOD YOU KILLED CHINATSU!!!!!!!!
Ariel: No, I was just so upset about our breakup that I missed in knife throwing practice....
Shingo: Oh, thank god
Ariel: your thanking god that I hit my dad in a very sensitive spot with a knife?!
Shingo: Ummm.... no!
Ariel: I hate you Shingo!!!
Shingo: And I love you!!!
Ariel: *chucks the knife at Shingo*

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You're not the only one.....
You're not the only one.....
Don't you think that you need somebody......
Don't you think that you need someone.....
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one.....
Don't you think that you need somebody
Don't you think that you need someone
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Don't you think that you need somebody
Don't you think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody........
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The End ^__^